What To Do...

I had an awesome time in Denver. I loved it there so much. I had a really hard time driving back to Cali. Broke down crying when I hit Utah. Now I'm back and more upset then ever. I have been very negative and I can't seem to stop no matter how hard I try. I know I can't do this past April or so. So if no jobs in 3 months, then what. Seriously, what do I do with my life? And its not like there is really a lack of jobs. Yes its not the best time to be looking, but jobs are being posted and I just can't get anyone to give me the time of day. I'm super frustrated. And I really don't know what I will do...any ideas? Become a ski bum? LOL.